so. lots has been happening in the past few months. i finally got out of a bad situation and got a divorce.
you would think after that, i would not really date, and if i did, i wouldnt get into another relationship. especially a serious one.

but who would have guessed. as i was going through the separation and divorce, a friend stood by me, giving me a shoulder to cry one and lean on.

we began to see each other more and more, hanging out whenever we could. working swingshift, and him on days, it was difficult to schedule a time that we could get together. so i would stop by his grandmother's house after work, and we would sit in my car and talk.

normally i would pass out on his lap, and he would have to wake me up in order for me to make it home.

how many late nights we spent talking i cant even count, but it was the highlight of my night. i would be chomping at the bit to be let go from work, so i could go see my honey sweet bunny.

many obstacles were in our way, but we overcame them, and grew stronger for it. both of us had been hurt in the past, him, by a former fiance; me, with my divorce. neither ending had been pretty.

slowly we began to fix each other, mending a heart-rend there, stitching a emotional-fissure here. gently, we reminded each other that neither had to go looking for what we both wanted: unconditional love and trust, friendship, hope, happiness.

i must admit, during my previous relationship, i was a sneaky, lying, secretive harlot. but that was in retaliation for his unfaithfulness. no excuse, nonetheless.

this relationship gave me my second chance: to turn a new leaf and start anew, knowing that he would accept me and my emotional baggage.

i finally told him i loved him...staring into each other's eyes, scared, scarred, and hopeful. soon after, we started to date. (i asked him out ^_^. i am SO not a lady.)

then we agreed to go steady. i had had my taste of the dating world, and what most of it wanted of me. why give up someone who loved me for me, for a world that wanted to change what i am? hell nah.

now, we live togther, with my cat, bogie. (she is a turrets-ridden, psycho-schitzo-sematic, anti-social, semi-suicidal harlequin calico).

we have secret plans that we confer over while laying in bed, giggling and scheming, hoping and wishing, loving every minute we have with each other.

time is short...but will lengthen eventually. i deploy after new year's for the sandbox. where i cannot disclose. but i will be gone for 6 months...and when i come back...i hope to pick up where i left off.

and that is what has been going on in the world of blue.

dueces.